I say I trust You, but the real truth is that deep down inside, I think I still have control over the situation I say I trust You with.
You have shown me how I could trust You with my son's safety when he was in Iraq. I could do nothing for him. You have shown me how I can trust You to wake me up in the morning so I am ready for prayer, with no alarm clock involved. In fact, You fussed at me when I thought I should set it to get to school on time, after You had been waking me up morning after morning.
You have protected me from mosquitoes as I sit on the swing, morning after morning. You can protect me from mosquitoes during Sukkot, without the usual aids of bug sprays and mosquito netting. (I had just bought packages of mosquito netting at IKEA.)
But the real issue is me letting go of myself in all situations and genuinely trusting You. “He was amazed at their lack of trust.” Mark 6:6